TI'm gonna be a mom. Fabulous!
Isn't it fantastic, how we in some periods of time, can relate to certain things, and later on in life,
we might not even recognise it any longer. We just watched a movie called Mr Nobody.
I really loved it. Probably the best movie I have seen in a very long time.
I could really identify with one of the characters, Elise.
She has some kind of depression, later on I feel very convinsed that it is Manic Depression.
-something I have struggled with myself for a decade. I just recently (around one year ago) quit meds and feel like I am in control of my life again; but seeing her brought back memories and it also made me fear a little for the future. Yes, I am afraid of becoming who I was... I am actually terrified of it.
Becoming a mom is going to be wonderful, I am just afraid of ever loosing it again -I don't think I will, I mean, I now know the secrets to NOT be manic, which is also the key to not getting depressed, they do go hand in hand, but WHAT IF I were to slip?
This blog is not gonna be much about stuff of that sort; I am not going to let myself go back in to that room.
The door is closed and the key is hidden in a very safe place. (I could say it was thrown away, but then I cannot be certain that someone don't find it and opens the door, now when I still have it, It is safe... noone will open that door... Especially NOT me)
This blog will be about how my life is -the baby, the move, the future... I will be writing here every now and again, if I need to get out some... thoughts...
And I am excited and happy in life; I have never had it better!
